Her name was Christy… She was in my mind a person that needed help. She is 33 years old and had been disabled for problems with her lower back . She was also a very smart and talented girl with a lot of bad luck. We did get along very well , as we both had the need for comfort of human companionship. She also was very giving and maybe …a little naive. When I think back a few months ago , I have very good feelings about the month of October. We both it seems ,needed a break from the ( rat race ) as we were both worn thin. So we continued to see one another mainly as friends , we were getting very close. From this point on she never returned to where she was staying as she was living in my house with me as close friends. We helped each other , by talking and listening to one another and traded misfortune. Yes we were a pair , we went out had fun and as the hours went by we had gotten very close. We had a dream of the good life , one that we could attain for ourselves. I knew that this would never work because of age difference , But I also had a different motive. Now only me knowing at this point that my employment was coming to an end… I stuck by her , She did have a monthly income for disability so i figured I need to stick close …just in case. She was , like I said before a very giving and compassionate person… and she wouldn’t question my actions. So I did my very best to make her happy …While I still had means to do it….and I did. I felt enormous guilt right from the beginning and played it off as the age difference problem ( it was 15 year difference ) I did somewhat have a problem with it as well. We were in our place..we were experiencing joy that neither of us had felt in sometime. It was getting towards the end of the month of October and I needed another car, I knew my work truck would be gone and my other vehicle was outta reach with my wife. I begin to ask Christy about what she thought we should do . I was also asking at work anyone that knew where i could get a cheap car. Christy had told me of the car she had in her name from a couple of months prior. She had said that there was a title loan over due on this car , the girl driving hadn’t paid anything and was in collection. So I talked Christy into turning them in and boom the car was repossessed. I had Christy call and find out the cost to get this car back and on Thursday October 27 th we picked up this car. I have a vehicle a guaranteed check every month , wow I’m good to go …till I get another job . At this point I being a master manipulator was feeling guilt so extreme …. well it was hard to hide at times . This is all from the month of October 2011… November is another story….also the use of drugs was at a low during this month as Christy wasn’t a drug abuser the way everyone had told me..