It’s a new day..I do not need to use today. The mornings it seem, bring me an overload of emotions .. I’m so confused about them . I don’t quite know how to describe them. One thing I have noticed and most reading this blog will not understand…but when I would get up in the past ( a drug user) I would usually get sick …cough and mot times vomit to some point. Today I got up and that didn’t happen. I am a smoker , but the physical part of this addiction is turning around . The thing that really bothers me is the mental side. It seems to be caught in limbo and no doing anything. This illness , this monster of addiction is very sneaky , Its using my own thoughts against me . I will not quit this fight , I will win …and when I do I will claim my prize, My life.. I did go to the docs yesterday seems I am a tough one… I’m in generally good health … I can’t believe it..after what I did to this body over the years.. That’s a huge reason for self motivation… and it is motivating me..I am working on a post that I will put up sometime today or night … I know it will draw aim to me .. hope you keep the comments coming as this blog has helped me greatly …as well as all of you participating…I feel good today..