Today is a new day..I don’t need to use today. Ok I think I’m starting to smooth out ..I feel good today but not better than yesterday. Has the improvement stopped..? I’m sure it hasn’t ..just one of those days I need to think about what I have and not what I had..Its getting easier to do this as my skills for emotional control are getting better. This addiction monster as I was told by others is very sneaky . I blogged yesterday about being at peace with my past , well certain things are still trying to hold me back…The monster is trying its hardest to make me fail…all I can say is give me your best shot.. I am stronger than you , I will win this war ..
I have spoken to a lot of friends and family throughout this rehabilitation process and I can’t believe i have received so much good advise . On the other side of this coin , I have also received negativity.. maybe even jealousy ..I’m not sure.. why would someone be angry that I have spoken to someone else..? has mankind really gone to the point that all faith is lost in one another… ? Has society really turned into everyone trying to out do the other..? Maybe we have to many rock stars and not enough regular people…. I no longer am a rock star.!!!! Today is a new day…I feel good..