I’m in a new day….I don’t need to use today…I have been thinking about a lot today…Not really liking some things that are happening to me . This trust issue is really bearing down on me, as in the past I was very untruthful at times …as was the people around me. Now that I have been sober its like ….I can see why people didn’t believe me. I am not happy of the latest events in my life..but I don’t have any control right now. I would have like to be in rehab three weeks ago, This wasn’t in my cards. I’m not sure why.. I can’t afford what these doctors want …and they haven’t any good reasoning for it other than to get paid…I think my past life has to be a memory only…there is no way friendships will be rescued from this monster. This addiction has stolen a lot of my life and has turned great things into cold dark death….I will say this it will be the last time this addiction monster will ever come close to me….I will be happy the rest of my life…and I wish all the best to every past friendship that I have allowed to be ruined by this ridiculous and cruel monster. Please forgive me ..Friends I am moving forward….I feel awesome…!!