Today is a new day..I don’t need to use today….Well friends its day three without cigarettes..This is not easy …I’m confused a lot .. seems I was in need of nicotine worse than I thought.. I need to talk more of anxiety.. I have so far to go , I thought I was out of the woods and on my way back.. guess what not even close yet.. My cousin came in this weekend and we had a great visit.. when she left I had severe panic for a short time ..Yes I broke down ..went to a room by myself and cried for 20 min ..I have since brought myself back to normal ..hmmmm what am i going to do ????? I can’t do this in public ..what if I have an attack like this at a job..? Maybe I need to slow down even more..? These thoughts confuse me ….Sorry about no post for a couple of days but I had to take a break..quitting cigarettes is in no way an easy task… I will succeed but its going to take a lot of thought and work. I am not looking into the future anymore…its has come to a day by day thing . I now see why everyone says that…it is impossible to do anymore. Friends I have come a long way in a months time …but have a lot ahead of me..
I have also received my start day for my program..It will start March 21… I’m kinda relieved of this , one less thing …umm you know . This program will teach how to cope with stress and anxiety . It will give skills in day-to-day living .. I cant wait foe this to start.. Friends thanks so much for listening to me ramble.. I feel good