Great day today , It’s a new day , I don’t need to use today. I have my second group meeting today, as I am going today with renewed enthusiasm. I’m really looking forward to this group as a tutor for the future. I do however still have concerns on getting others to open up , as I would like to hear there story’s . The feelings of others I think are very important to one’s recovery, but I am still trying to conker this part of recovery.
I am feeling very necessitous at this time , as I don’t have a means of self-sustaining my life . The economy is terrible to begin with and my training isn’t in demand at my current home. This really weighs on me as I’m not comfortable receiving things without something in return. I do think this is the thing that takes up most of my mind space …lol.., seriously its no picnic . I was always used to having things , money in my pocket almost all the time . To be in the shape I’m in now is very disheartening , as a lot of my life is on hold .I am aware this is needed for recovery …but what if I MISS something that was put in my path. I guess if it was meant to be there , my circumstances wouldn’t matter,,,There’s always that feeling though tearing at me to get going on with every aspect of my life.
Ok all I’m off to my group meeting , I will be there with an OPEN MIND and will participate no matter what others do. I will try to post again with any thoughts on the meeting when I return …I am feeling impecunious and optimistic at the same time..Thanks for all of you.
I am real interested in wood working and this caught my eye as a project I would like to do. Just sharing with you all.