Today is a new day , It’s the last day of March..wow its now gone, I don’t need to use today. The next month of the year is here wow , April will be a better month for me as March seemed to drag on. I know everyone is saying what are you talking about it flew by. My month of March was very interesting at least, as I was fighting the worse battles of my addictions . I am a drug addict and will be for life , this isn’t going to end , other than being addicted .
My feelings on many subjects remain while others are lost forever. I do however visit my past for a short time , but am remembering good times rather than bad. I do think some of my past does define me , a curtain amount has too. I do know others say , your past doesn’t define you when your on drugs. I think a little different, whereas it has to a curtain extent , what I mean is we made these choice’s . Some choices were bad , but don’t we all make bad decisions even if drugs were not available. I know what you’re gonna say , but when drugs are being utilized there’s more of a chance to make them . Your totally correct , however I have known people who just make bad choices and never done the first drug. Hmmmm profiling and grouping people into categories is going to far . Yes I agree some traits of drug addiction are similar , as people are still INDIVIDUALS , we can’t profile other races ,so don’t profile addicts .
I’m looking into going to college while I’m taking this little furlough from life. I’m not quite sue what I wanna do with my education , but counseling has really caught my eye. I am going next week and putting this into action if by any means can be. I don’t know whats in front of me , going to school this late in life , but I’m going for it. I may even take a couple of writing classes and clean this blog up a little. I always had a dream of writing a book , that may still happen who knows . I do know I’m here foe a reason , just need to figure it out. My days are getting shorter and better , the Doc said maybe in the next few months we can get off the medication I’m on kinda nervous about this , but we will see.
Thinks seem to be hovering right now , I need to get something going . Its been 52 days sober , 23 days nonsmoking…everyone I am an addict, this is Sat March 31 I feel awesome..thanks for reading my blog..have a great and sober day !
A few articles on drug abuse , if interested remember knowledge is power right..?
- Drug addiction among women up (nation.com.pk)
- Drug abuse in Kashmir (kashmirreport.wordpress.com)
- Medical and psychological view on drug abuse. (uw20sciencemediaandculture.wordpress.com)