Today is a new day, it’s a sunny cool day, I don’t need to use today. Today I woke with feelings of my past, anxious feelings that tell me to move on. This is very upsetting and very hard to explain, as most have a life plan into effect. These feelings are very malicious , as they are mood altering and attitude changing feelings. I am struggling with thoughts of future events , as the future doesn’t exist for me yet. The dreams I once had are all stifled because of my thoughts being unable to stretch past a week or two. It seems a joke to some people for totally ruining others lives , however if you’ve been through this on the losing end there’s nothing funny about it . I have had a lot of advise to just put this behind me and don’t worry about it . This advise seems great if your saying it , but no so much if your hearing it. Some things are very difficult to get over , losing everything is one of them . I do however hope this never happens to anyone , as if it does then and only then will you feel as I feel and know what I know. I don’t have these feelings very often anymore , but I’m sure there not over with completely. It makes for a bad morning , as I know everyone has these mornings whether in my situation or not . I’m in no way saying my brand of worry and stress is any worse than others , but different in ways that’s not understood by all. I have many telling me “your futures bright” hmmmm it’s hard for me to take this comment to heart as my future in my mind doesn’t exist . So please answer this question … I have heard from most not to look to the future .. to take this one day at a time . I have done this and when this seems comfortable … lol the same say ohhh your futures bright ….Really ! wow ok …so where do we go from here , Do you see this confusion that I feel..! I’m Tim ..I’m an addict. I feel confused… have a great day …!
A few articles for fun…
- Leaping….with curiosity, enthusiasm, intention, trust and goodheartedness (pocketperspectives.wordpress.com)
- Future Looks Bright song sheet (memelovemusic.wordpress.com)
- You have a bright future ahead! (motivatingdaily.com)
- 10 Amazing Facts About Mondays (oddee.com)