Today is a new day, I don’t need to use today. I’m where I need to be right now, as I have had a restless night . I have been consumed by thoughts of independent life , missing things from the past . I need to unplug further of my past memories , and thoughts as they serve me no purpose in this sober attempt at a new life. I find this kinda aggravating as some of these memories , I was looking forward in retaining . I’m learning more and more the truth that past has got to be forgotten. I hope these feelings soon become a thing of the past as they are very debilitating .
submissive – inclined or willing to submit to orders or wishes of others or showing such inclination; “submissive servants”; “a submissive reply”; “replacing troublemakers with more submissive people”
– inclined to timidity or lack of self-confidence; “a shy unassertive person”
– dutifully complying with the commands or instructions of those in authority; “an obedient soldier”; “obedient children”; “a little man obedient to his wife”; “the obedient colonies…are heavily taxed; the refractory remain unburdened”- Edmund Burke
– marked by meekness or modesty; not arrogant or prideful; “a humble apology”; “essentially humble…and self-effacing, he achieved the highest formal honors and distinctions”- B.K.Malinowski
– subject or submissive to authority or the control of another; “a subordinate kingdom”
The thing I have been thinking of lately is the things we all do just to appease others. I think in my past I demanded certain behavior from people or persons closest to me. I was in a position in my employment to demand this as well. I think I had a very domineering personality, and wanted submissive behavior under me for satisfaction. One of the main driving factors in my own experience may have been low self-esteem as I needed someone of that nature as I couldn’t control an independent type personality. I also think a little selfishness was involved in my personality traits as they promoted the dominate behavior further.
….I’m no psychiatrist by any means …lol kinda self diagnosing through my known experiences.
There may have been a time in my relationships that this dominant , submissive personality actually worked out . I also think some persons just feel comfortable with these personality’s active as long as security is involved . Security , the driving force in some , maybe most people to achieve as we feel at ease after this accomplishment. Are we willing to give up certain liberty’s for security ?To be submissive or just appease someone to make them happy if they supply our security ? I know this to be true because of my past , I’ve seen this with my own eyes and I am sure this behavior is continuing. Some believe that the submissive personality doesn’t have an opinion in the eyes of the dominant , this isn’t true . I do think if a dominant and submissive personality exist and have respect for each other this situation can last for years . On the other hand when the respect is lost or the satisfaction for either personality evaporates this situation erupts violently and almost expeditiously . These are only my opinions and as I have said …I’m no psychologist.. or Psychiatrist…But I do need to talk with one…
I do hope all of you have an awesome day , I’m getting through these days , this blog really helps …I’m Tim ..I feel overextended but learning everyday…