Here I sit ….concentration lost ….bored with recovery …but still I push forward. Christmas in the near future , everyone asks …” isn’t it hard to be in recovery at this time , you know during the holidays” . My answer you know …..it’s hard to be in recovery on Wednesday …lol I don’t need a holiday for this to be hard. Everything this year has been a first …maybe I’m bored with things being a first….? I want to be happy ….so far I’m not …..Things stay the same … Maybe the fear of change is holding me up. I need to seek out god and push forward….