Just thinking

I’m sitting here thinking , not of the future but of the past. Over and over, I wonder how I could have done things differently or better than I did. It seems to be a plague with me not ever being satisfied with any aspect of my life. I don’t think I’m really unhappy , I’m just surviving rather than living . Joy that comes to most I don’t think I have ever felt. There seems to be no answer as I have been down many avenues to live the dream but have never been successful. I’m not sure what the future holds for me but I can say this….. I’m really not excited about it …….thanks for reading . I do have several poems in the works so stay tuned…

10 comments on “Just thinking”

Joy is elusive if we try and wonder what it is and how to attain it…at least that’s what I have found. Happiness can be classified the same way…. Instead maybe try to think for today what would make me feel a little less depressed… what small thing might give me a few moments of perhaps just feeling a little better.. Would a change of scenery help? Getting out for a walk in nature….going for an aimless walk in a shopping mall maybe to see something that may make someone else smile or myself ..to look at ..for me it might be a little figurine of a bird .. I love birds……for you it might be a book … I don’t mean to trivialize what you’re feeling because I have been in the past a long time without feeling any kind of joy …..I don’t know what your religious feelings are but for me …I will say a prayer that you might somehow find a peace and the elusive ‘joy’….. Diane

timzauto on November 20, 2013 at 1:40 pm said:

Thanks Diane …..I think for me like many others , I obsess with a cut and dry method for attaining joy rather than just letting it happen…I need to get out of my own head.

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I do believe you’re not the only one wondering such things.

timzauto on November 28, 2013 at 6:23 pm said:

🙂 I know there are many… Thanks for viewing..

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For me it starts with learning to let the past go, I cant change it, and looking at the stuff I can be grateful for today. As I look for things to be grareful for consistently I have found happiness. It takes practice, forgiveness and humility.

I like the raw quality of this post, and relate to the sense of frustration at never quite being satisfied! Recently I had a little revelation about this, am writing about it but first putting this new thought to practice in my life. Stay tuned, thanks for visiting my page!

timzauto on November 29, 2013 at 2:14 pm said:

Thanks Joan…:)

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There is no such thing as success. Or, if you like to put it so, there is nothing that is not successful. That a thing is successful merely means that it is; a millionaire is successful in being a millionaire and a donkey in being a donkey. Any live man has succeeded in living;

– G. K Chesterton

timzauto on November 29, 2013 at 9:20 am said:

Great view …. Thanks for sharing..

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I feel for anyone who’s depressed. Been there bigtime. So two suggestions to take or leave.
First – we can’t change the past, only learn from it, so regret is a terrible waste of time. For what it’s worth (probably not much) I’ve posted a couple of blogs on the subject if you feel like reading. One’s called ‘Dear grandchildren’, the other ‘Regrets? Nnah!’
Secondly – I think we’re all (particularly in the US, from what I can see) brought up with some fairytale expectation of ‘happily ever after’, ‘living the dream’ etc, which inevitably sets us up for disappointment. Life is a learning curve, with patches of good, bad and indifferent. And as Writerwannabe763 said, joy and happiness are elusive if we set out to chase and analyse them. Just for a fun exercise, try spending a whole day looking instead of thinking. Joy lurks in the most unexpected places!

writerwannabe763 on November 19, 2013 at 4:44 pm said:

Joy is elusive if we try and wonder what it is and how to attain it…at least that’s what I have found. Happiness can be classified the same way…. Instead maybe try to think for today what would make me feel a little less depressed… what small thing might give me a few moments of perhaps just feeling a little better.. Would a change of scenery help? Getting out for a walk in nature….going for an aimless walk in a shopping mall maybe to see something that may make someone else smile or myself ..to look at ..for me it might be a little figurine of a bird .. I love birds……for you it might be a book … I don’t mean to trivialize what you’re feeling because I have been in the past a long time without feeling any kind of joy …..I don’t know what your religious feelings are but for me …I will say a prayer that you might somehow find a peace and the elusive ‘joy’….. Diane

- timzauto on November 20, 2013 at 1:40 pm said:
  
  Thanks Diane …..I think for me like many others , I obsess with a cut and dry method for attaining joy rather than just letting it happen…I need to get out of my own head.
  
Russel Ray Photos on November 27, 2013 at 6:30 pm said:

I do believe you’re not the only one wondering such things.

- timzauto on November 28, 2013 at 6:23 pm said:
  
  🙂 I know there are many… Thanks for viewing..
  
pattypooh67 on November 28, 2013 at 4:22 pm said:

For me it starts with learning to let the past go, I cant change it, and looking at the stuff I can be grateful for today. As I look for things to be grareful for consistently I have found happiness. It takes practice, forgiveness and humility.

Joan T Warren on November 29, 2013 at 9:07 am said:

I like the raw quality of this post, and relate to the sense of frustration at never quite being satisfied! Recently I had a little revelation about this, am writing about it but first putting this new thought to practice in my life. Stay tuned, thanks for visiting my page!

- timzauto on November 29, 2013 at 2:14 pm said:
  
  Thanks Joan…:)
  
hairbyrobert on November 29, 2013 at 9:18 am said:

There is no such thing as success. Or, if you like to put it so, there is nothing that is not successful. That a thing is successful merely means that it is; a millionaire is successful in being a millionaire and a donkey in being a donkey. Any live man has succeeded in living;

– G. K Chesterton

- timzauto on November 29, 2013 at 9:20 am said:
  
  Great view …. Thanks for sharing..
  
helen meikle's scribblefest on November 29, 2013 at 10:23 pm said:

I feel for anyone who’s depressed. Been there bigtime. So two suggestions to take or leave.
First – we can’t change the past, only learn from it, so regret is a terrible waste of time. For what it’s worth (probably not much) I’ve posted a couple of blogs on the subject if you feel like reading. One’s called ‘Dear grandchildren’, the other ‘Regrets? Nnah!’
Secondly – I think we’re all (particularly in the US, from what I can see) brought up with some fairytale expectation of ‘happily ever after’, ‘living the dream’ etc, which inevitably sets us up for disappointment. Life is a learning curve, with patches of good, bad and indifferent. And as Writerwannabe763 said, joy and happiness are elusive if we set out to chase and analyse them. Just for a fun exercise, try spending a whole day looking instead of thinking. Joy lurks in the most unexpected places!