I often think to myself… I want to be a scholar , but I’m not a very good student.
Sooo here I am a 50 year old body and the maturity of a 30 year old man . I discontinued all learning for some years due to a long and grueling drug addiction. Maturity it seems suffers as much as physical well being as I don’t think I grew mentally during my abuse.
I have spoke of my addictions to very few people and it has helped me too a certain extent. Now being mentally immature I find myself on a different level than most my age. It is very difficult for me sometime times as I miss out on conversation with others on certain subjects knowing my replies are childlike or I haven’t the vocabulary to keep up. Even in the last few weeks i seems I am attracted to a certain level of person ( I know this type is not good for me) so I am left to myself without an outlet for what I truly want to talk about . I often try to plug myself into realistic conversation versus the dribble most addicts or people I attract have to offer.
I’m not sure what direction to go so I will for now keep plugging away in hopes I will catch up maturity wise to others my age.
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