Following closely, but unconnected
Events unfolding , with differences detected
Promise was made , no change accepted
Following closely, the rule expected
A thousand years , silently neglected
Warm and cold , to a soul injected
Breaking society , a love infected
Shattering dreams , to feel protected
Awaking now , life’s end projected
Disease runs fast , our love selected
future focus slipping
the boulders of past return
the scent of completion thinning
vision of reality’s burn
unwanted opinions exploding
a lightning strike that’s near
souls in the back ground whisper
I turn they disappear
struggle without retention
movement with no path
acts of violence filtered
consumption of your wrath
the sky is always burning
anxiety at it’s peak
emotion keeps erupting
heartbeat getting weak
Unexpectedly, you lose your job. (Or a loved one. Or something or someone important to you.) What do you do next?
Photographers, artists, poets: show us LOSS.
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Losing loved ones
leaves are falling , like unwanted pain
days grow shorter , my thinking turns vain
colors around us , we miss them each day
the penitence of life we all will once sway
my journey has started with all that I knew
since then my knowledge , I try to construe
life has its meanings , we must find our own
once it is found , we then must atone
this journey continues day after day
emotion , strength and courage are all on display
leaves are still falling , pain turns to reign
overcome with thought , I try to abstain
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Feb 8th 2012 was a day that changed my life in a huge way. I have remained drug free since that day through thick and thin. I however have learned different things about addictions , the biggest being it is a lifetime commitment (almost a battle on some days). I remain socially damaged as I either don’t trust myself in certain situations or not fit in with the group I am with. True friendship eludes me , maybe I’m just scared to engage…
I still don’t feel joy as most do, I’m not sure why this is still afflicting me as maybe I just need more time to heal. I have been out of my program for about 10 months and some times wish I was still going .
I’m thinking about going to some self-help groups again , the problem I have is I work out-of-town and live in a rural area with limited support for mental or dependency problems. Going to a meeting on the road maybe a solution I need to look into as well. It seems most people who haven’t had addiction problems themselves or been close to someone with an addiction problem know what we go through when trying to adjust to a life of drug free life.
I do know I ‘m not happy with my current situation. I feel like I’m hiding from things , be it socially or just everyday life. I am not happy with settling for the job I have as I have done bigger and better things while being addicted. I truly want to be further educated , my thoughts are look your fifty now by the time I would receive a degree I would be in my mid fifty’s. I don’t think I would be hired by any company so I need to go with what i know.
I do look back on what I wasted….it makes me feel like I’m different from others ….a runner , running from my life.
The day will come when I stop running and start living…..
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with all of the essence
she enters the room
like fresh roses in bloom
chants are all fluid
as soothing to my ear
thoughts of her in past
always brings a tear